HI - it's been a minute. i've missed writing and sharing. adulting is hard.
lol well i'm so late on this, but i finally have a lil free time to reflect & reminisce on my best and worst year of growth yet.
when i look back at 2016 i do a few things:
3) get sad
5) mostly cringe, and then laugh again
i cringe at all the stupid situations i got myself into, or all the times i acted A FOOL lol but tbh no ragrets cuz now i can just laugh about it. i have a lot of memories in 2016 i can think back on and smile, and i only get sad because it's over.
the year i finally turned 21, moved out, and got to (somewhat) fully experience a daily life of independence or just "going away" for college. and i'm really happy i did. living away from home was good - it made me really appreciative of my independence but also of living at home. idk how much $ i spent on food/eating out, smh
even though my 2016 didn't start off so well, the rest of the year definitely made up for it. i got so caught up in a terrible situation and i feel like it kind of broke me, not exponentially but i was definitely hurting. they same time heals, which was true. but i think the bigger part of my healing was with the help of my friends (luv u guys). all the strong relationships that have grown the past year is so worth losing one with another.
i was so involved w others that i forgot to think about myself. being alone became harder, when i used to spend time alone all the time. i got distracted and lost focus - but i see things more clearly now. i'm not proud of what i did and i'm not taking any blame off my own actions. but i'm not saying that i don't get sad when i think about it from time to time. i feel like it'll always be there, but it's okay.
graduating was sad :( i accept that it's over, but i can't help but miss it all. maybe one more year would have been nice, lol. i just miss the convenience of it all - seeing people all the time and living closer to friends. adulting is hard - but i guess we gotta do what we gotta do to get to the future we want. we're all just trying to get through this weird chapter we call our twenties, right?
2016 brought me so many things - SO MUCH HIP-HOP!!! (the year of hiphop albums tbh), experience in new places, memories, and lots and lots and lots of self realization. although i keep looking back and bein all nostalgic about it, i'm trying to make this year even better.
this year, i want to try and get back to the more optimistic me i used to be. i want to find peace in my solitude, and my strength in independence again. i want to read and travel more. i want to explore my passions more and discover something i really love doing. i want to be able to talk about something with passion in my eyes.
i can't believe it's already almost april. someone make time stop pls!!
here's to another year of the hustle. don't know what i'll be writing/thinking a year from now, but let's just hope i make it there lol. so until then ~
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